37 weeks...almost there

so here i am almost ready to pop this little guy out. still so excited to meet him and be his mommy. feeling lonely and scared at the prospect of being a single mom and i do mean SINGLE but doing it myself is much better than trying to do this with a serious mentally unstable selfish person. i know im gonna miss being pregnant and having baby Carter kick and tussle around inside me but i know theres gonna me so much more to experience once hes here. i hope im good at this whole parenting thing. i know im gonna do the best i can plus some! WHEW here we go...im gonna be a Mommy :)

Baby on board

So im 14 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Very happy at the prospect of becoming a mother. My body changes just about everyday I feel little movements and its nothing short of amazing. I can't wait to meet my little person I hope that I'm creating a good enviroment for my lil one but its difficult I am doing my best though I am so in love with this little creature I feel myself changing emotionally nothing seems as important as having a healthy baby. I wanted to begin a family with the person I've created this life with and love tremendously but mental illness and distress is making that difficult I am hoping for the best but being realistic I have to take care of my baby...I cant help someone who wont help themself. Have a tummy buldge and my boobs are enormous cant wait to have a bigger belly but im sure i will regret saying that LOL off to bed give US some rest