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Doormat

i am gonna face it. im a doormat i spend most of my time doing shit for ppl i think care about me and get nothing in return. wait i take that back i get lots of heartache and resentment. and these assholes think im so satisfied by just getting to be around them. how can so many men be such emotional retards. i know im not perfect but i love with my whole heart and if i care for you theres nothing i wouldnt do for you. so why am i always left waiting for something better to come along. if you could only see that what i could offer u would be all you would ever need. then u would never want for anything else. of course i would like to chalk this up to their loss. but i cant help what my heart wants and when my heart yearns for someone its the equivalent of a mack truck with no brakes, its gonna keep on coming with no stopping. oh well i guess ill suffer once more. its become a way of life. call me the queen of all that is unrequited.

UBER STRESS

I spend so much time trying to help other ppl out but I don't see one person trying to help me out. I think ppl throw the word friendship around like they throw the word love around. Actions speak louder than words and so far I see no real actions from the ppl I do the most for. I think its time I start letting people see what I'm like when I let then fend for themselves....when I start saying no sorry...I can't! surprise surprise I have that ability. I think doormat-me has to go away. Cause I really feel like the person I do the most for thinks I'm his door mat covered up by saying he's always there for me. But I have yet to see him do anything of consequence to help me. The little things he does here n there are small to nil. I like to keep my word but I think my word is gonna have to be NO. I'm stressing myself out for others but doing nothing to help myself. Time for a change!

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