im here...

your the grownup your suppose to teach me reason and accountabiliy
instead i feel always on a mission to try and reach your humanity
be my daddy
remember when that was important
remember what that meant
you were suppose to be my security
protect me even from myself
but instead you allowed your agenda to take reign
making your rules insane and my trust fleeting
yes have had a brief meeting
but i felt no closer to you than a lonely stranger
in my heart i feel the danger
the catastrophe if goodbyes arent said and glances of love arent met
my faith is shaky but still ill pray hoping your well
let our love flourish once again please
little girls need their daddy
please release this curse let me come to you
i promise i wont cuss or argue
the past is long gone ive blocked it out
i have no clue dont know why we are here
i promise ill be your lil girl again
please just met my daddy appear

brand new....

my heart got a lil bigger
feelings i thought were lost to youth
crushes and giggles, warmth inside, butterflies dancing from stomach to head
thoughts of love only flickered and now the possibilty
oh the possibility...
scared of the brokeness im all to familiar with
unsure if i can bare to chance pain again
just becoming familar with the thought that my beauty was unseen
but no longer, please no longer
i feel maybe i should run....keep distance, self preservation
but what if i didnt get hurt, what if beauty was something he sees
and i was someone he didnt just leave
for now ill just close my eyes and remember tonight i was held close and felt his warmth
soft lips against mine leaving wanting more, felt like magnets in our eyes
magical sight
so tonight when i close my eyes i wont be in pain wont be frightened wont be ashamed
dont know about tomorrow morning or night
ill have this just for tonight....