To be single or not to be single....that is the question

So I have been with my boyfriend for just under 10 years. For as long as we have been together most of my friends have said hes weighing me down and I can do a lot better without him. Basically I mommy him. We have broken up a few times and he always seems to get his shit together when we are apart but then soon as we get back together he falls back into the same bullshit, drinking to much etc. I have just been off work for a few months to get off a serious pill addiction and have been making a serious effort to gain a successful life. He says he wants the same things but in my heart I think we are on borrowed time. Sometimes I wish he would just end it so I don't have to. I feel that I owe him in some way cause he took care of me while I wasn't working. Its not like we didn't make the decision together for me to take time off to get myself better and said he was happy to help me get my life together. BUT when he drinks he gets silly drunk and lays a shit ton of guilt on me cause HE had to take care of me. and then low and behold as soon as I started working he gets fired. Then he finds another job and gets fired from that job. He also takes my pills that I use for anxiety and sleeping. On paper he sucks as a boyfriend but he also his my best friend we can laugh and talk about anything but there is no intimacy we haven't had sex in months last year we did it twice. I attempted to have sex with him last night for the first time but he pulled the whole I have a stomach ache routine. Once again I feel ugly and rejected something I just told him that happens when he does this. Basically we are one bedroom roomates. I love him and I still feel in love with him but I feel that in love part dwindling away. I want someone to want me physically and mentally. I know there is no perfect relationship and I'm afraid of being single but I already feel alone and lonely. Why bother with this relationship that seems to be failing anyway????

Verbal Tip

So a verbal tip is one you are waiting a table and the people or persons you are waiting on gush on how wonderful their experience was and how great the food was, laughs at all your jokes yadda yadda yadda THEN you see your tip and its FUCKING CRAP!!!! like $5 on a $50 check. To be honest I would have been happier if you dry and miserable and left me a 30% tip. Money talk....bullshit runs a marathon. I hope all the mother fuckers I have had to misfortune of waiting on in the past that left me shitty ass 4 and 5% tips are reading this and just now realizing what a piece of humongous piece of smelly runny shit you are. I do this for a living cause it makes me money and once in a while I have to privelegde of waiting on someone that is friendly and can appreciate that I am a human being trying to perform a service for YOU! Anyway I am going to be so I can wake up and do it all over again. But in case anyone reading this and wants a little secrey Marion Barry is a SHITTY tipper and as rude as shit. Like a wannabe DIVA with no money.
Thats it i'm gone

Treat your server with respect

So I work in a fairly popular restaurant in NW, Washington, DC. This past weekend we were visited by lots of tourists. People visiting for the 4th of July festivities. Are there no restaurants outside of DC other than the occasional Dennys? I mean people haven't tipped 10% since the early 80s and that's being generous. I work for my tips I make less than 3 dollars an hour and I have to pay busboys and food runners percentages of my tips. So if one were to leave less than 10% I possibly could be paying to you to eat at my restaurant. Come on people use a little consideration and compassion. If you need a refill and would like dessert tell the waiter at the same time. Don't make them make 2 trips. Also, 20% is the accepted norm for a tip in America. If you can't afford to leave this then you shouldn't be eating out. If a server has gone above and beyond and has given you great service. PROVE IT leave them a tip that is applicable with the time they spent making your lunch or evening a good one. One last thing, we are human beings if I walk up to your table and you are having a conversation take a brief pause and allow your server to present themself and try to accomodate YOU. Don't finish your thought expecting us to stand and wait. In case you didn't notice you most likely are not the only person in the restaurant and we enjoy being aknowledged the same as you if you walked into a room. No one likes to be ignored. One more thing this clinking on the glass or snapping of the finger to get a servers attention is rude, juvenile, and just plain ignorant. Treat the people that service you with the respect you would expect to receive in your workplace and tip accordingly. I have a brain like an elephant as do many of my peers and if you leave a bad tip, trust me if you come back we will remember...

P.S. If you treat your server with kindness I am almost positive you will receive that kindness back in abundance. A small hint if you have small children order for them, we don't have time for 3 yr old Johnny to figure out he wants chocolate milk that we dont serve. I'm sure I'll have some more to say about this later but absorb this for now I will get back to you later with some helpful hints for riding the metro